Monday, January 17, 2011

One BIG girl:) and one SAD mamma:(




So it has been two weeks since we had a BYE BYE party for Sofie's Diapers and her Bottles.  With the New year I knew I had to do this and so the night before the kids went back to school we celebrated by letting Sofie cut all the nipples from her bottle and then giving her a present with big girl cups and panties.  She was so good about cutting them until reality set in:)  She did so good for the most part and to be honest it was easier on her than me.  You see I really enjoyed her being my baby and I am not ready to face this new chapter in my life.  Truthfully I have cried all morning because of this adjustment in my life.  11 yrs ago I began the first chapter of motherhood. I still remember holding her. I remember the feelings of trust and of a deeper love than I had ever felt before. I remember those feelings with each child. It is what I love and so enjoy!  I know motherhood will continue. Each faze brings so much JOY. (I love that word because it is my moms name and she truly is my Best Friend).  I love being a woman. I am so thankful for my role as a wife and mother.  It is the hardest thing I have ever done. There are many days where I feel I haven't done so good.  I need more patience, I want to be a better listener, I want to play with them, I want to hold them, etc...  I know in my heart that this is all part of parenting.  There are days where I don't like their actions. What they do or say- but I will always love them.  I really think this is how my Father in Heaven feels about me. He doesn't always like what I do or say but he will always love me.  How thankful I am for My Father in Heavens perfect example.  I know that I need Him as I go through these fazes of motherhood.  So now I am on to a new chapter.  Pre- Teens here we come!!!  Am I ready for this? Any advice? I will take it:) I like the saying, when one door closes another one opens.  This is where I am.  I feel a little scared, a little sad, a little excited and a lot confused as I begin this chapter and this door opens.  I truly hope that in the end I will embrace each faze with the JOYS that will come. For I know that there is so much 
Joy in the Journey! 
   
Especially when they are asleep:)

2 comments:

The Bass Family Pond said...

You are an Amazing Mommy,I loved it that you talked about each phase is a JOY, which relates back to your Mom, she has taught you well and yes each phase is going to be a JOY~But, also a trial, there will be disappointments ect...But, Heavenly Father will be there for you also. Think about
it~ There is so much JOY in YOU! So carry on Missy! Carry on the legacy of JOY! Love You

Amanda said...

I love the picture of her sleeping..what a sweetie! And I agree with Rose, you are SUCH AN AMAZING Mommy. I admire you and am so thankful that I have you to look up to while I am entering new phases with my kiddos! I'm so grateful for you in my life-you are such an amazing wife, mother, and friend!! And seriously, ANY DAY you need some baby lovin', I got a chunka who loves lovies!!! :)